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Devin the Dude - "Treatin' Me Cold"

I got a new hat my granddaddy's ole hat!

My grandmother sent Pops ole hat to the house over the weekend. I looked at it after my son gave it to me. I didnt know wht to do with it at the time or how to wear it but I knew I would keep it just because it was Pops something special you know. I was blessed with many gifts over my lifetime and I am so happy to have had them. My special gift culminates all my gifts which makes me even more thankful but figuring out how to use it was the huge dilemma. Since I got it, I couldnt give it up. So I kept it and kept playing with it until I become a master at it, if ever.
Just like I did that ole hat cause I picked it up at the end of the weekend and started wearing it and guess what it is the flyest...! Has inspired a whole look for me and I know I can do it. Thats just what my favorite gift of a lifetime did for me and guess what you will never believe who gave it to me. You probably know him but it is all mine so I wont tell. I love him for that. Thats all Imma say and know it aint my kids..shit I got to share them niggas. This belongs to me and I try and take care of it everyday from now on cause its MINES.
Its worth its weight in gold Got to nurture it you know since it belongs to me, once you know how to use it, USE IT its URS. If you know from the gate then thats wonderful too. See cause the friend that gave it to me was a gift just for that. oh yes he was. I could hardly believe it once I found out because he was gone now but thats just how it goes sometime.
Oh no I didnt cry I just smiled as he left. I knew we would always be together because of what he gave me see that was our secret baby. He could have had it another way but I said no to that and I got this....And chile it was the best gift I ever had. See I told you I done got a lot of things, consider my self lucky you know, know what to accept. But you know we all got gifts and we got lots of people that give them to us if we accept them. See I accepted mines and I am glad I did too! 'U better take yours...B4 it leaves! Write.

How they do dat dere?

Been writing and writing and feel like it might take forever...but I been to forever and back. I continue to seek inspiration and life definitely gets better. I cant complain at all its all good here been doing it working hard, staying focused and coming a long way in life. This technology is amazing and I am glad to be connected. I am so proud of my family and friends and I believe it could only get greater. Just stay on task! I didnt really know how it might all turn out after the birth of my last son but it has been a smooth transition and delivery just trying to get my mommy mind back although it will never be the same. I dont think...anyway I am getting back connected with the universe although I am worlds away. Staying up with my goals and those things that I should be staying on top of. Life is splendid and I love everything that I am into. I guess this is an early thank you note to a great year. I have learned so much and I do remember this time last year. It was only the beginning! My winter snow baby! :)) If only you knew but we moving forward in life time and space cause we here now and we cant stop. So where are we going no one knows but we all should show up and stay connected positively! Peace and Love into your life!

Length of Loving You...

Sometimes you just got to let it go....I mean people get mad the earth doesnt stop. People stop calling the earth doesnt stop. People stop acknowledging the earth doesnt stop. People stop loving you someone else will. Thats just life. In all things there is a time and we must recognize that. The time that begins and ends things but your time with yourself never ends and that is precious. More precious than its weight in gold. Weight was the word that my Aubrey spelled when he was supposed to spell weigh. WEll I have been weighing and then I evaluated my weight and valuability to this world and those that are in my realm. I am a pretty hefty person but no need in giving when it really aint deserved that is what we should all remember. It is ok to love and we love in all kinds of ways. The weight that we have measures the amount of love that we give and that is just what we have to remember about ourself and turn it inward to draw what we are deserved. I think that is beautiful but the focus is the key. WE cant lose focus or sight on these things.
Thus we must stay persistent in our goals and not push anything out of reach due to what we get sidetracked with. Anyhow the world is still moving and things revolve and evolve thats a wonderful thing. Death is the only thing promised and no one knows. So get to moving and know there will be many things to love so love it to the fullest because one never really knows how long. True Story....

"Its not you I dont trust darling its your private thoughts that give me pause"

Well...I been chugging along and last night I just had to stop. I couldnt get out another idea because my character was just not ready to move. As the writer I just have to be there, you know. I mean ready with my computer, paper, pencil and or pen. I have to time mangage and do all my mental and physical exercises so everything runs succintly. I have to stay on the grind stone all the time and be very exact with everything. But they say more than every thing prepare by knowing your character and know their story. I been picking up players all along. Found a real good one yesterday a deceptive one. I was hating the thought but she adds insight and thought provoking shit. I hate her actually but someone will love her.

Next so she is going to gain success through media. Success or fame which one should it be I cant decide. I am happy with success but its somethign about fame that is enticing. I just have to have...It is definitely power but who really wants to deal with that. It just calls though so I have to decide by the end if my character will have fame. More than likely she will. I could see her famous. SHe just better get what she deserves thats all Imma say. Will there be someone significant in her life? Good question...I would say maybe maybe not. Who knows remember the story is all about her and so she might like this path just because it will be all about her.

I want that to be bitter sweet though, what can you learn from that ladies and gents too of course. The dualities have to be clear but anyhow none too deep today just skimming the surface and trying to get them next three to six pages out today! If I do Im good...

"Sarra" Short for Sarraounia

Anti Hero, Life is Tremendous and Interesting.

Protagonist is Loved and Loathed.

They Accent The World, They have Lots to Learn from.

Because the Hero is Selfish and doesnt know it. They are able to luck up on any circumstance and they are always seeking a Thrill in Life and they know how to live it to the fullest no matter what CIRCUMSTANCE.

The ups and downs, highs and lows able to communicate with ANYONE. To BE Successful...

Independently Successful.

We laugh, We Admire and WE are AMused by their Worlds.

We hope for their Love and Success which is not Easy.

We are Afraid of them Failing.

Death. Stagnation. Misunderstanding. Missing the Calling.

Finding Love thru all the Ups and Downs...She is so Focused.

Unable to fulfill The Calling.

People.

Harder Challenges with People.

People Mess it up but The Anti Hero needs to understand them in order to MAKE IT to the Finish....Sidetracking, Lying, Cheating, Deceiving, Undermining, Discouraging and Stealing.

They cant live a happy more sound life with out fulfilling their greatest gift.

To Write a Book about Life.

A child is born and the AntiHero Moves to a NEw city!

Yes a deadline to make a huge move and get on the scene...To make a Movie. All Star Weekend!

Lack of Money and Support.

They seem to keep being distracted by people and their lives interfering with Hers through Thoughts.

Focusing. Staying on Task and Time Managing which does not have a place for LOVE>

Love Focus makes it unattainable.

Yes it can be Evaded if she detaches totally and focuses only her priority with her child.

Never forgotten because it is necessary, but it can be solved peacefully and she needs to figure it OUT.

THE MOTHERS. A New Network. Her Family.

That everything will Show up Ontime. She will lose Love. They dont know that she wants independent success anyway andit is actually a help to be unattached. They dontknow about the secret desires.

Cause her to move out of her element. Threaten her infrastructure and dampen the spirit.

The attention she gets naturally. Defaming her character and using her selfishness against her.

HEr pitfalls are misunderstood and causes resentful feelings.

YES Jealousy, Growth and Commitment to Thorough Relationships.

How she becomes and moves as a mother focused and Determined.

She will not allow anyone into her world. She demands too much.

She is left alone and loses her Love...She has to go at life alone.

Her friends surround her and encourage her tremendously.

She feeds her ideas and gives her tools to keep on going.



Sarra loves and loathes her father it is what some might say love hate.
She hates and loves his stubbrornness. The father had common sense and controlled mentally.

Her mother had book sense. She couldnt control her and she knew her world was GREAT! She would have to bow down to her Mother.

Her one brother is aloof she loves him so much but he is like her mother distant but close. They both seem omnipresent.

Overprotected but not sheltered. They felt affection as children and this is why they are so secure and self assured.
Working Class. The economic status was poor. Religion is important.

Politics hold the backgrond and influence of whereever you are.
Sarra is slow witted, book smart and good common sense. Intellectual and Street Smarted.

She knows she is smart but knows she is slow witted and that is her duality.
Slow deliberate conversation really goodlistener but can drift and become dreamy sometime.

Love school and everything about it!

Always involved in school!
Connected but not interested only wanted to be in the club and get things done.

She has a law degree.
She is the editor for the New Yorker.

Wants to only write scripts and shoot movies needs to at least option a script.

Travels regularly. Learns cultures abroad and makes new friend for her Global Society Column.

hER DEEpest diisillusion is love in the princess and king world that has yet to exist in her society properly.

The Movie